There are those who will tell you that a woman who still grieves her dead husband isn’t capable of love. They’ll tell you to run because you’ll always come second. You’ll be told it’s not fair that you must share her heart with another.

Please know, however, that a widow is capable of loving you despite her love for her late husband. She can love you with all she has while simultaneously loving the man who came before you.

There are days when we know that you will no doubt question our love. You’ll wonder if we want you or if you’re simply a fill-in for our late-spouse. You’ll question your role in our life and ask if our heart has the capacity to love you in the manner in which we love him.

Understand that it is never our intent to make you feel as though you need to stand in our late-spouse’s shoes. Despite the “Chapter 2” term that so many in the widowed community affectionately call their new person, in no way do we expect you to be a “continuation” of our former life.

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There is no desire for you to step in where a late-spouse “left off”. Sometimes during a soap opera, a favorite character is recast. The audience will hear, “The part of ABC character will now be played by XYZ Actor”. There will be no such announcement to our friends and family. We don’t want you to assume the role of our husband whose death rocked our world.

We’ve changed. Who we are today isn’t the person we were prior to losing our spouse. We love that you fit this stage of our life. The love we share with you is uniquely our own…free from comparison and free from unrealistic expectations.

We do ask that you be patient with us. There are days, typically early in our relationship, where we’ll question our newfound happiness with you. This is especially true for the first post-loss relationship. We’ll self-sabotage because we feel it’s too soon. We’ll worry about what others will think or just feel downright guilty for finding love again.

Dating a someone whose spouse has died isn’t quite the same as being in a relationship with a woman who is divorced. More likely than not, a divorcée has “made peace” with the end of her marriage. With widowhood, it’s a never-ending loop of emotions. Heard about the five stages of grief? Not so for many widows. Our grief is like an onion. One layer is intertwined with another which may bring us back to Stage 1 even in Year 2.

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On our bad days, when the triggers are plentiful and the tears roll down our eyes, we hope that you understand it has nothing to do with our love for you. Many times, we opt to cry in the shower or alone in the car to hide those raw emotions out of fear of hurting you. How could we still be crying about our late-spouse if we loved you, right? That’s the part of widowhood that confuses many. How can we say we’re happy and in love but talk about missing our spouse all in the same breath? One widow rightly pointed out, “I no longer believe that life is happy or sad. It’s both…all at the same time!”. We can grieve and love; grieve and be happy; and grieve and move forward with life.

As our current partner, it can be challenging to see us in pain. We know that as a “fixer”, you want to take away that hurt. We want you realize that grief isn’t something that goes away, not even with love. Yes, we may have more happy days, but those feelings of occasional sadness will always remain. Allow us to talk, vent, or cry. Create a safe space for us to talk about our late-spouse if we so choose. You don’t have to try to be a savior. Often, a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on is all we need to get out the widow funk we’re in.

Loving a widow is worth it. Broken crayons are still capable of creating stunning works of art. On our bad days, love us harder. On our good days, remind us of how far we’ve come and love us even harder.

We thank you for choosing to love us, despite the challenges. Thank you for teaching our heart to expand and experience love again. Thank you for the gift of hope and restoring our belief in “happily ever after”. Most importantly, we thank you for your openness to understand that loving our late-spouse takes nothing away from the love we share with you.

Mom to a feisty preschooler, Kerry Phillips runs a support group for young widows and widowers venturing back into the world of dating. She’s also a former contributor to HuffPost.

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